Was i really pregnant?

…..Yes, but he married someone else

So, did I have the baby?   

  …..Yes, the soldier returned and married you.

Was the baby OK?   

…..Yes, he was precious and gifted.

Were we happy?

…..Sometimes, he had lots of resentment.

Did we have more babies?   

…..Two more boys and a girl, close together.

Were they ok?   

…..They were awesome, one had birth defect but God fixed it.

Did our marriage last?   

…..For 17 insecure years.

Was he faithful?   

 …..No, he cheated many times.

Did we divorce?   

…..Yes, he married the last one.

Was the divorce traumatic?   

…..All the kids were scarred by the divorce.

Did they ever heal?   

…..Eventually, mostly, but the first one died. 

How did I survive that?   

…..You had support groups and your faith. You got much stronger.

And the siblings?   

…..Boys eventually reconnected with their dad.  Daughter became an addict.

Did I remarry?   

…..25 years, later, while raising your daughters boy & girl, you remarried.

Was that a good thing?   

…..No, he seduced your daughter for drug money.

Did we divorce?   

 …..Oh, yes, quickly.

Did I get over him?   

 …..Very fast, and soon forgave your daughter.

What happened to them?   

…..They married and had two children.

Did she heal from her addictions?   

 …..Only in death.

How did I survive losing two children?   

…..Grief support groups and reaching out to help other hurting people.

Did I find love again?   

     Finally, 20 years later.

Was he a good man?   

…..Oh, yes. He healed you with his kindness.

Did you marry?   

…..You didn’t need to… His kindness was enough.

Was I finally happy?   

…..More than you can imagine.       

Lyvonne Hill  10/31/2021